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就这样吧啦！
我万万没想到你竟然是这样的人，我看错你了，唉，对你还蛮失望的咯。说真的我还是不能理解你的所作所为，可是也算了吧，I don’t have to understand everything, right? 其实，Monkey所说的听起来是有道理，可是我却觉得你不会是他讲得那么坏吧！唉呀！我干嘛还在帮你找借口啊？算了算了啦！
那晚真的很感激 Monkey的电话，其实啊，我默默地希望他会call， 因为实在太需要找人发泄。Monkey很无聊，he ended the telephone conversation with “My name is cock, cockroach” to the tune tone of “My name is Bond, James Bond.” -.-|||
Anyway, 放心啦 (in the first place 都没人关心或担心啊！哈哈！)，我没事，真的没事，只是非把心里的话说不可。哈哈！等等！我还有一句话要讲… you are too too careless with words, 讲一套做一套是一个很不负责任的行为!
是我错了吗？
你的忙碌
我的沉默
慢慢地冲淡了我们之间的感觉
彼此之间的回忆 也渐渐地消失
也许在背后默默地支持 也只有换来被遗忘的命运
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这不是lately发生的事情啦，是大约一个月前我insomnia时想的事情。
FYP presentation done!
Presented my thesis this morning at about 12:15pm in Bilik Kesuma to a tutor, Mr Faiz. Thank God that those lecturers whom i did not wish them to appear did not come… However, Mr faiz did ask a question or two… it’s ok, at least he is not as scary as those ever-ready-to-bite lecturers…
Presenting my Final Year Project
Went to mines after that for lunch, Sushi King because there is ntg else better we could thought of at that moment… then went in to Kitschen to see see look look, and today i finally tried the dress that sort of look like a jumper… I have been wanting to try this baju for so so long now… hahaha…
Ocha
LoL!
There is something i dont understand about guys, they say “sorry dear, cant get into it, because i have plans, i dont think i want a gf until i achieved my plans besides i will not have time for you”. What is with guys and their big dreams/plans/watever? How could they put aside relationship just for their dreams? Doesn’t achieving something with love ones make the achievement even more meaningful, memorable and cherishable? Why cant they just let their partner be by their sides to encourage them in their process of achieving their dreams? these guys always say they do not want to be unfair to the girl (because guys wont have sufficient time for the girl while chasing after their dreams) therefore is better that they dont be together… i think this is yet another lame excuse… Have they ever thought that maybe the girl doesnt mind at all? or even the girl is ever ready to sacrifice for the guys? Argh~ i doubt guys would ever understand~ Forget it… i am just writing about these because i was reminded of it by someone…
I was so tired the moment i woke up this morning, didnt really sleep well, was subconsciously awake because someone trespassed my dream the WHOLE NIGHT!!!! ARGH!
Long goodbye
I know they say if you love somebody, you should set them free (or so they say)
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they don’t come back again
Then it’s meant to be (so they say)
But those words ain’t pulling me through
Cos I’m still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it’s just you and me
going through the mill climbin’ up a hill
Sometimes i ask my heart did we really give our love a chance
and I know without a doubt
I turned it inside out
And if we walked away
would make more sense (only self defense)
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on a carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere on a wing and prayer
This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can’t make it
Just what kind of love
keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You’re gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it’s over, Let’s face it
All that’s happening here is the long goodbye
but i guess, I am the only one who is still thinking about the “what IFs” of that relationship
I am still waving goodbye, my never-ending goodbye.
Could it be that i am in denial?
Why do i always have second, third, fourth (…and so on) thought on something which i have had a conclusion?
It is not that i am still waiting for him, no, i have never thought of waiting for him, i am looking around.
My ever-so-peaceful heart has not been stirred for the past few years until of late, it was awaken and aroused, but knowing full well that things will not work out, I have to put off the flame before i suffocate and choke myself.
above is an excerpt from the long goodbye – ronan keating.
here is why…
So, you don’t understand why my criteria for men is that he has to be a christian, here are the explanation given by Elizabeth Elliot in “Let Me Be a Woman”
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here are the questions (to ask yourself when you are in a relationship):
1) is this the man you want to spend the rest of your life with? That’s every day of every week of every month of every year from now till one of you dies.
2) is he:
punctual or habitually late?
orderly or disorderly?
a reader or a TV watcher?
an outdoor man or an indoor man?
3) Does he:
like your family?
treat you as you think a woman ought to be treated?
have men friends?
have approximately the same education you have?
like the kind of food you like to cook?
come from a home similar to yours?
like your friends?
like to entertain, and would you be proud to have him as host at the other end of the table?
laugh at the same jokes you do?
4) can you agree on:
sex?
in-laws?
children and their training?
money?
your respective roles in the home?
… let me (the writer) assure you that I’ve known happy couples of which one is an indoor person and the other an outdoor one, one is punctual and the other late, but it requires particular grace, and it’s just as well to consider in advance whether or not you think it’s going to be worth it.
… i (the writer) do not insist that every question under 3) must be answered “yes” if your marriage is to be a success. and of course agreement in the matters of 4) can only be in principle until you’ve had the chance to work on them as husband and wife. there is no practice session for these. Deep, underlying principles will determine your handling of these things, and you must thoroughly agree on these before you agree to marry a man. this is why I did not include religion on the list. “religion” is not simply one of many matters to be debated about on a par with child-training and the treatment of in-laws. it will determine the child-training and how you treat your in-laws. it is the foundation of your life.
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do you now understand?
Friend, i earnestly hope that YOU will come to know HIM someday. :)
