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2010… can you believe it?! There’s only about 20 days left to 2011!

Time waits for no man… how cruel!

It’s that time again for some self-reflection, I have been thinking, thinking real hard over everything that has happened during the past 11 months. Whatever that came to mind can be categorized into 2 categories: 1. Work and 2. Love.

Work:
I never find my work to be interesting, but i dont deny that there were times when i see a slight possibility of me staying on in this company for the next 5 years. Crazy as it might sound but yes that thought actually crossed my mind before despite of the type treatment i get from the management. I dread to go to work (yes, i know, i have mentioned this umpteen times), I cried before going to work… Nothing like a lousy work environment to make one feel down and out. What do i like about working here is that, my sis and i get to car pool everyday, saves petrol! And hardly any OT if not none, i get to be home by 7:00 PM! and most importantly it reminds me of him, it contains memories of us during the happier times!

… that brings me to my next point - LOVE.
He called me minutes before 2010 and we sort of closed 2009 together. Oh I remember everything so clearly as if it just happened ysterday… We had an argument on the 30th, just hours before our date - to watch movie (Avatar @ Alamanda) together; we were both devastated over it… i cried so hard, didnt know i will be crying harder still a few months later. I thought we’re finished after that fight, heartbroken as i was i went to work the next day, to my delight he msged me after like… ages: 15 hours!! I was so glad; we were glad… so very happy of not having to end 2009/to start 2010 in such a sad way…  but the inevitable must come and it came after a few months. I spent the first few months crying sobbing almost everyday, there were days where i just had no more tears to shed. It pains me so much that i couldnt share the good & bad times with him… Everything i do somehow relates to him. SIGH. I guess he wont be around for me to hold; to cherish; to love for now…

“Then Job replied to the LORD : “I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted.” Job 42:1-2

to sum it all up – the roaring year (of the tiger) has ended with a mere meow… PATHETIC.